Just because.

I'm going insane.
as in bang my head on the wall just for the heck of it insane. i'm bored. my exams are 4days away and i still haven't studied a thing. i just dont feel like it, man. i mean, i'm scared and all.. ooh whats gonna happen i'm gonna flunk kinda scared. not helping. i just cannot get myself to sit down with my study things. on the contrary, what i have been doing -

sleeping - oh its very nice, especially because of the nice weather.
reading books - which are in no way related to my syllabus - jonathan livingston seagull. again.
listening to music - i'll give you an entire playlist before this post ends.
brooding - oh ohh ohhh.
going out - whenever i've been able to muster the energy. and the need (sneak a drink of pepsi). bi-ii-ig issues my parents have about me having pepsi. the other day, i went all the way to new market just to have nahoums brownies :)
watching stuff - well, i just got addicted to the o.c. again. i started downloading all the episodes straight from season1. i've been watching about 2episodes each day.

i'm useless.
i should just die.

sigh.
yesterday was the jethro tull/anoushka shankar concert. i am not even going to start talking about that lest i get carried away. it was bizarre. for reasons like 'i'm accustomed to seeing stuff like this on youtube where they've performed in london or arizona or wherever'. to see them in person.. damn. ian anderson is a very funny man. and anoushka shankar smiles a lot. the fusion tracks were really nice. especially the matchup at the end. the flutes.. absolutely amazing. by the end of it, it was kinda like.. 'haa. satisfaction. i think i can die now' or something. the lighting was beyond amazing. the entire show itself was something. i was having coffee during a break. Rrrr and a brother of her's were there. suddenly we get a report from inside that the show had started. i couldn't find a dustbin so i just chucked half a cup of coffee. no clue where it went. i located the dustbin a moment later, when i turned around.


moving on to other things.
sometime last week, i cut myself while shaving. corner of my lips. shit it hurt. well, i thought it would cure in no time. boy, was i wrong. instead of healing, it's actually spread. the right corner of my lips are slowly starting to look like something straight out of the dark knight. no prizes for guessing what. it hurts. it really hurts.

i have this thing i do. given a situation, a word, something, anything really.. i directly relate it with some film or the other. i don't know. it just comes. i can't help it. it gets annoying after a while. trust me, i've been told. but, i'm really sorry. i just cannot help it.

we all know about the mumbai blasts by now. if anyone doesn't.. go flush yourself down the toilet. the night it happened, i didn't really think much of it because i was sleepy. i saw 10 dead, 25 injured, and i fell asleep. i woke up in the morning. two sms'es. both asking me to watch the bloody news. the later with a reference to the joker from the dark knight. speaking of chaos. my kind of reference. i turn on the news. chaos. i glue myself to the news for the next 3hours. straight. all that i see is chaos. at the end of the 3hours.. 82 dead, 200 injured. what i was seeing was shocking. it scared the hell out of me, man. the newspaper had the scariest photograph.. this old man being helped by a police official to walk out of the railway station. it was empty except for bags, and shoes, and blood everywhere. everywhere. i cant even imagine something like that happening. i'm done talking about this. it's too sad and scary.


here's the bunch of twelve songs that i've been hooked on to for the last couple of days. i made a playlist on iTunes. named it playlist. they're in the exact order below. nice songs. has a lot of emotion and meaning. a lot. and in case you haven't heard some of em.. click. you'll be redirected to a youtube video.
:)

1. Dice - Finley Quaye & William Orbit.
2. Dudley - Yeah Yeah Yeahs.
3. Orange Sky - Alexi Murdoch.
4. Mercy - Duffy.
5. Saturday Morning - Eels.
6. The Way We Get By - Spoons.
7. Never Tear Us Apart - INXS.
8. How Far We've Come - Matchbox Twenty.
9. Maybe This Christmas - Ron Sexsmith.
10. Champagne Supernova - Matt Pond.
11. I Will Follow You Into The Dark - Death Cab For Cutie.
12. Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head - B.J.Thomas.


the snaps..
a - is a concert poster of the yeah yeah yeahs.
i love the yeah yeah yeahs.
b - is a piece of art which i like from doubletake, doublethink's bedroom wall.
photo c/o senjuti.
c - and i quote.
introduce a little anarchy.
upset the established order and everything becomes chaos.
d - is a fork and a spoon holding hands and walking.
just because..